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Lemon Grey

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Hey Grey,

Jen and Dean got together! It's total drama! I know you don't care, but I felt like I should tell you anyway, to keep you in the loop and whatever.

Much love,

Lemon
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Hey Grey,

That didn't last long. I think I'm starting to get bored of all this drama – am I turning into you? What have you done to me!? Just kidding, I could never pull off that weird, stony silence thing you have going on. Actually, I don't think anybody could.

Much love,

Lemon
x

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Grey,

Where the hell have you gone? Just come back, okay? You're not fooling anyone.

Lemon

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Grey,

I'm sorry about the last email. Just write back to me! I won't tell anyone where you've gone if you don't want me to, I thought we were friends?

Love,

Lemon

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You're gone. I can't believe you never told me. Is it my fault that you let go and stopped trying? Couldn't you have just held on a little longer? Why didn't you just tell me? I could have done something! I could have been there for you, Grey! What the hell were you thinking?

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Grey,

I miss you. I'm sorry. I miss you.

Lemon

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Grey,

I'm not going to email you anymore after this, okay? It's too hard and I can't do it anymore.

I can't seem to do anything anymore, not without you anyway.

First it was my mum and I thought I was okay with it because it was so long ago and I never really knew her anyway; I was only six, right? And I love my dad, I do, but he's not my mum, is he? He does his best, I know he does, and I wouldn't change anything about him but… Well, you know. Or you would have known. You would have understood. But now you're gone as well and you've left me here by myself.

You changed me, Grey, even if you didn't mean to. I'm so angry at you – or at least, I want to be angry at you – you stopped me being that person who could just wing it. I'm not happy just being popular and stuff anymore. I'd rather have you than all the stupid girls and guys in the world. I can't believe I had to hear it from your mum. She looked at me so strangely, like I was asking the obvious question and, oh god, I probably made her hurt all over again, didn't I? I'm so stupid! I'm such an idiot! That's why I can't email you anymore! I'm making other people hurt by bringing you up because I don't know shit, Grey. I'm hurting myself. I don't want to do that anymore.

Did I ever make you hurt, Grey? Don't answer that. I hope I didn't.

I miss you.

I love you.

Lemon
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Wow this one is kinda hard to explain.

So, in one of my seminars this week, we had a writing activity which was pretty odd; we each chose 5 stones, not knowing why, and then gradually as the seminar went on we gave them names, personalities, backstories, etc. and gradually Judy (our tutor) made us give up stones as we grew more and more attached to them, wanting to develop them. Eventually we were left with one stone, a character who had literally sprung up out of nature.

My stone was... Lemon. She's spoiled to some extent, secretive about how she really feels about her mother's death, covers her feelings up by being bubbly and popular, but eventually befriends stoic and standoffish Grey.

These are the emails from Lemon to Grey after Grey suddenly stops coming to school and Lemon discovers too late that she had been suffering from leukemia.

Grey and Lemon (c) me
Writing (c) me
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BatInAHat's avatar
This is really powerful
Very well done.

It sounds like it was a difficult and emotional seminar